How do you get out? Wiggle around like you are having a seizure until you bounce out of the rut? Just let it run its course like the flu? Lie there an accept that this is life? No, climb your ass out and move on.
With all of the great things going on in my life I find myself more stressed and anxious than usual. From the great job with funding troubles to wedding planning and budget issues. These stresses and anxiousness has landed me in a deep rooted rut that I seemingly melt into when life seems a bit too out of my reach. I've been here before and the result was no good, no good at all. It's time to get out of the rut, but how?
I've found that as my life gets better my challenges get greater. The happier I am, the more issues surface. The more financially stable, the more financial emergency issues arise. The more I love myself, the more my issues take control. I struggle to think that God has anything to do with it. I believe that these works are the devil, trying to distract me from the good life that God has given me. But damn he is good at his job. The devil has it wrapped up, from self hatred, deep rooted men issues and the always looming financial burdens of life- he has this thing down. Why do I allow myself to be his personal punching bag? Why is his influence in my life greater than His influence in my life? I left a window open somewhere and that bastard blew down the whole wall and now it's time to pick my pieces back up, put them back up like bricks, and get out of this rut and move forward.
Bricks to be put back up to build my life of love and happiness:
- My love for Donji is unfailing, selfless, trusting, and kind
- My love for myself is never ending, enough to sustain me, and all that I need
- I am far more brilliant than I could have ever thought
- My future is BRIGHTER than my past
- Money will come and money will go, be responsible but do not freak out over it!
- Worrying will get you no where champ
- Treat you friends like a friend not a burden to be caught up to then discarded for a few more months
- Love wholly, yourself, Donji, your family, your friends, you work
- Find beauty in every situation because this might be the only time you get to see it
- Laugh like a crazy person as much as possible
- Keep active, a body and mind at rest will stay at rest forever
- Give more than you relieve and you will always end up on top.
Alright back to work and putting my bricks back in place.
Dear Rut,
We are through. You no longer have a hold on my spirit, heart, energy or thoughts. You are not welcome in my life, in my day or in my mind. I actually have shit to get done. Peace,
Kari, the bad-ass you accidentally enraged.
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